Many a men have had meltdowns during their red pill journey. Honestly it’s ok to have a meltdown, it’s human nature and something that helps you change your identity. The red pill path is fraught with pitfalls and serious troughs that balance out the highs of the feelings of freedom and the joy of getting somewhere with women. Many men who get into learning game or following a red pill path drop off at the first dip. Their first meltdown is something their ego and identity can’t handle nor recover from. Therefore they regress back to what they know and felt comfort in, a world isolated from truth.
I’m going to open this up to something personal that I wrote at the end of 2009 back when I was just about to turn 21.
They are thoughts that I’d been harbouring for quite some time before I’d written them but had been prompted to write them down at that stage of my life due to uprooting to the Middle East and chasing a monetary dream.
Sadly, it was only that; a dream. I learned some great lessons and had some beliefs I’d always had cemented into my brain thanks to the adventure I had. The thoughts I’d written down seem a bit far-fetched but they tie in to the post I wrote about Power and Status last week and the social hierarchy that I believe exists.
I had a good conversation with YouSoWould on Sunday evening over some food about our aspirations, and the observations and values we’ve taken from the red pill world, and indeed gaming girls. Well, I ate, but he’s watching his figure.
Naturally, the subject of higher status came up and I mentioned to him these notes I’d written a few years ago that I’m keen to share, even though as I said they seem a bit far-fetched from certain perspectives and full of teenage angst. Here’s what I wrote back in 2009: [Read more…]
Dissociation (n) – an experience of having one’s attention and emotions detached from an environment
One of the worst things I’ve found about the red pill is your bare naked evaluation of yourself and those around you.
After learning about the red pill world and how to better myself as a person in order to really achieve the things I want to achieve in life, I’ve looked at myself in the mirror for who I really am and not who I want to see.
All the faults I used to hide or push to the back of my brain are now at the front of my thoughts so that I can tackle them head on. Dissociating myself away from bad habits and “comfortable thoughts” have enabled me to push out of my comfort zone and face up to the issues that were holding me back that I never wanted to admit to myself.
We’ve been a bit quiet this week over here as we’ve been focusing on our upcoming trip and tying up loose ends here in London. It’s been over 4 years now that I’ve been actively changing my life and changing it for the better. If you had told me at the age of 25 that in a few years I’d be embarking on a long term trip around Europe doing fuck all in terms of work, I’d have laughed, taken a toke and dreamed about it whilst lying on my friends couch as he roared around a track on Project Gotham Racing 2. Meeting the Rock Solid Game crew was a real turning point in what was going to be an insipid life of slaving in a cubicle, having a romantic tryst every blue moon and probably an indentured one too. Following that old path of my parents probably hooking me up with some broad, marriage, a hefty mortgage and working my ass off until kingdom come.
First came the romance as I’ll call it in a remarkably padded way, it was never romance of course, just seduction and fun. A weekend with the top guys in London set me off on a path filled with 2 years of serious daygame and plenty of one night stands with a wide variety [Read more…]