You may have noticed that we’ve not been as active as we were a few months ago.
There are a few reasons for this and when the three of us made a plan for this year in around November last year, we knew it’d be a tough year this year. We described it as a “foundation year” in that this year would prepare us for the years succeeding 2013.
We’ve had monetary goals that we’re all still working hard towards reaching and things like picking up girls have taken a back seat in our lives for the time being. There are more important issues at hand such as securing location independence. That’s the number one goal to come out of this year having achieved.
Jimmy and Bojangles had planned a summer tour around Europe as you may have read about in Jimmy’s post here, but they’ve had to cancel it due to family reasons. This sees them both out of London for the remainder of the year and, like me, focusing on next year.
If you’re a regular reader then you’ll see from my recent posts the direction I’m trying to take with my life and what my priorities are. I’m 24 years old but the Bromigos are both older than me, and even people like YouSoWould who I’ve been hanging out with recently are much, much, much older than me.
Hanging around with older people gives me a sense of urgency to achieve the things I want to achieve as quickly as possible. I’ve been told I’m young and I have a lot of time on my hands but my main priority, and my constant thoughts, are about leaving full time work for good as quickly as I can. It doesn’t matter to me that I’m 24 and could go on another 5 years or so working before worrying about location independence and whatever; I want it now. I want to be a millionaire by the time I’m 30.
I make a lot of sacrifices in order for me to pursue my goal as efficiently as possible. I want to save as much money as I can while I have a full time job with money on tap, and other things, normal everyday things, don’t come into play.
For example, I haven’t bothered updating my wardrobe. I really should, as I’m still living in last year’s clothes bar a few pieces, but I’d rather save £100 than drop it on some jeans, t shirts, shirts and whatever else I want. Sometimes this makes my thinking process difficult, particularly when I see my mates who are older than me with their lives in a lot more order than mine, being able to focus on the things I’m ignoring for now. Buying new clothes and suits, buying expensive leisurely toys and so on.
Meanwhile, I’m not treating myself to anything. I have the “short term pain, long term gain” mindset circulating in my head constantly. I don’t care if I look like a scruff right now because in 12 months I’ll be in a completely different situation where today won’t matter. Today will only matter in 12 months and beyond that if I’m being frugal now and working hard to make money. I don’t look like a scruff, but I could look a whole lot better with a new wardrobe.
I’m not trying to impress anyone at the moment aside from earning the respect of the people whose opinions I care about. Thankfully, they all know the score so if they see me in the same t shirt three times in a month, I’m sure they understand why. I’m exaggerating a bit, I’m really not a scruff.
For now though, I don’t feel I can write valuable posts. My mind is all over the place and I’m stuck working unsociable hours in a job that I abhor with no means of an escape yet. I’m looking for a new job to see out the rest of the year but it’s proving difficult to find something at the moment. I’m in a battle with myself about whether to hand my 30 day notice in and hope that I’m offered a temp job when I finish, as I have been over the past few weeks, or secure a permanent job before leaving.
I don’t want to risk not having a job as it will undo all the hard work I’ve done over the past 10 months to secure a decent future for myself. As a result, it feels like I’ll be stuck where I am until the end of the year which is absolutely draining me mentally and sucking out any enjoyment of life. I’m suffering as a result, of course. I’m lacking in general confidence and my motivation to do anything is at an all time low, but what’s a few more months of misery compared to at least a couple of years of leisure?
This lack of motivation has stopped me from going out to pick up girls or find any romantic ventures. As such, I dwell on the past and yearn for some of the girls I’ve been with back in my life. I’d never act on any of the urges to get in contact with them, but they make me nostalgic and plunge me further into a worse state.
Saying that, I do have a date on Sunday with this girl who works in my bank. Coincidentally enough, she’s Slovakian like the last girlfriend I had. There was very minimal effort on my part, which is exactly what suits me.
It brings me to another point. I feel a bit shitty still from my last girlfriend. I broke up with her as I mentioned in my post about being broken inside from oneitis and what I’d learned from having an EE girlfriend, but I feel bad about the way it happened and how much I’d hurt this girl. She wanted a long term future and had done absolutely nothing wrong, but I cut it short because my own plans came first and the longer we were together the more I’d hurt her when we did eventually break up. It felt like kicking a defenceless, harmless little puppy.
So, I’m treading carefully with this one as I don’t want a repeat scenario. Me and the Bromigos have plans to run a bar in Brazil in January, and that’s what comes first.
This weekend is the Notting Hill Carnival weekend and symbolises one year from my Epiphany Girl. It’s strange to think it was one year ago as I still think about her from time to time, and I remember it all as if it was only last week. This hasn’t helped my mental state much either but it’s nowhere near as bad as it was 6 months ago.
It’s true about having girls in your life to forget the others. As I don’t have any in my life at the moment, I remember her more but thankfully, I can see why I’m thinking about her and a few of the others too. So I’m not beating myself up over it at all.
One year since I realised I could pull extremely attractive girls and know what methods to use. I wonder where I’ll be this time next year. I certainly didn’t think this time last year that I’d be planning what I’m planning now. I certainly expected something like this somewhere down the line, just not so soon.
So, I’m going to have a break for a few months while I get my shit sorted out. My posts recently I feel have been all over the place and I can’t concentrate enough to fully articulate what I want to effectively.
Below are a few of my favourite posts from the blog so far. See you in a few months. There’ll be a lot in store next year and you can get us on Twitter: @The_3_Bromigos
English Girls and Shaving
Power and Status
The Sex Eyes
Choosing my Company – Jimmy
Kick A Girl’s Ass
Books and Croatia – Jimmy
Don’t Have Game, Be Game
The Car – Jimmy
Fat Chick Entrapment – Bo
Before Game/After Game
Collecting an Italian Soul – Bo
Pick Up A Waitress
I want my Friday nights back, Jimmy.